Warning! : Emotional post up ahead!
I don’t know if I was following my head, my heart or my instincts last night, but one thing’s for sure, I was trying to salvage something that I wasn’t sure still existed in the first place. I couldn’t control my emotions any longer. I couldn’t even believe it myself that a girl who used to be so timid about breaking school rules or the girl who have always played on the safe zone in that romance section, got her cousin and his friends to fetch her and help her out. I don't know if it meant anything to you, but it was a pretty big deal for me.
I don’t know if I was following my head, my heart or my instincts last night, but one thing’s for sure, I was trying to salvage something that I wasn’t sure still existed in the first place. I couldn’t control my emotions any longer. I couldn’t even believe it myself that a girl who used to be so timid about breaking school rules or the girl who have always played on the safe zone in that romance section, got her cousin and his friends to fetch her and help her out. I don't know if it meant anything to you, but it was a pretty big deal for me.
You were a pretty big deal to me. I’ve never felt this way and for the first time in my life, I actually knew how it felt like to risk something. If there was even any left? Before last night, I was reading into things that you never said. I wanted to think it was things I did, so I could turn around and mend things ‘cause I never got the answers to why it was over. So now, I might actually have made things worse than it already is. That’s what they meant when they said some things are better left unsaid huh? Believe me, I'm a sucker at this.
Sidetrack a little: I swear I love that cousin of mine for being able to tolerate my nonsense in the wee hours! His two friends Josh and Shasha were nice to come along and cheer me up too. And i was glad they came before that drunk guy came running after me this morning! DAMN, CLOSE CALL!
Visited Rp to meet Jacq yesterday and joined her for a little waffles treat. Watched some episodes of Heroes and read through some physics ( 2% of the time though!) Met my bitch after her lessons and did i ever mentioned how much i love her! ( i swear that wasn't me a second ago typing that! HAHA!
Haji lane flea with the sistnemy of mine.
rinny and her cousins!
I need to take a breather- A good holiday would be just what i needed. Or a class chalet! PLAN ONE SOON HAJA! =)
rinny and her cousins!
I need to take a breather- A good holiday would be just what i needed. Or a class chalet! PLAN ONE SOON HAJA! =)
I didn't come down this morning to hear you blaming yourself again.